Friday, January 2, 2009
New Year's resolutions. People make them and rarely stick to them. I do not normally make any, but this year I want to change that. I want 2009 to bring unity, love and success. Details left out for sake of... well they just don't need to be explained and I do not have 2 days to explain them. I know their meaning, their specifics and am praying I can at least work my way towards the goals. I need to get my head back on. Not go back to 'how I was' or 'be myself again' because obviously I am still being myself... it is quite impossible to be anyone else. My need is to take my new happenings and twist my reactions so that they are not in denial of events that have happened or ignoring it all together, but make it so that I face reality and process all that it entitles like a healthy minded being. Is anyone healthy minded tho? I mean definition of the term please. I believe my friends and I decided today that no one is sane. We are all crazy in our minds it is just a matter of whether you say that craziness out loud. So let me rephrase that statement... I would like to process life so that I can continue in it with a new knowledge from every moment. Its the only way to live it to its full potential.
Now... I believed that is Emo enough. I will cut it there and run off to read my girly magazine advice articles ha I have become 'one of those girls'
I make myself sick. And I should go talk to Shelbs who is down for a visit. Aaaaannnnddd I miss Kari terribly.... although am oh so proud of my lil lady=) love you woman
Over. and. out.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Yet here I am writing a blog so I can procrastinate further =) I do not learn. Its a charming quality of mine.
Well, since I am at it, lets vent a little shall we? OoOo k. While distracting myself from my nonsense final I stumbled upon Shelbs' blog and then on to Josi's... they inspired me to write a little. I would like to get this thing back in routine.
I am not going to spill all that has happened between my last blog and now buuuuut I will say there hass been definite change. Change is always sgood when going in the right direction. My question... is my change headed that way? Who knows. At times I think the new adventures I am partaking on are wrong, bu only becuase I feel as though I should feel that way. Guilt only becuase I know if I told my mother she would think I shsould feel guilt. Strange. However, exciting. San Diego is a new world. There are battles between friends, with the parentals, when balancing a budget , when juggeling work and school and within myself. Growth I guess is what you could call it. I am growing up. Yay for me.
It is a homey feeling here though. This city could be home for a couple, maybe a few years. In fact, just decided to stay here next year instead of moving to LA. Although I am sad I will not be under the same roof as Shelby Jean, I will visit often. This place jusst seems a better fit for me. Before the living decision I did decide to switch majors to the more business side of FIDM with Merchandise Marketing. An event planner is my latest career thought. And I just had a co-worker offer to help me get a job with an wedding planner who is a friend of hers. Score! I would like to test this arena out. I only think I'd love it. Need to test this thought out.
Boys. Need to leave my life. Men. Need to enter. Well.... really just one man. Thought I caught one just to have fun with but low and behold-- he is playing games. I do not like demanding attention; it is not something I need/want often. But when I want it... I better damn well get it. Throwing a fit. When did text messaging become so important?
Summary of the last two nights:
Come home to drunken roommate and our guys
Refused to drink due to rough weekend
Jumped in spa at 2am in underwear (well the guys were)
Got yelled at by one big dude
Passed out or attempted to-- failed due to drunkards running through the aparment complex causing an unbelievable rukus which I was amazed didn't bring security to our door
Worked on final and realized how long it was really gonna take
Now-- home, working on final, listening to Tegan & Sara, listening to Seanie boy passesd out in 'the cave', having a little cocktail
Back to history. What did Eisenhower do to change our economy? I don't know either.
Monday, May 26, 2008
- Start and finish my research paper due tomorrow
- Ship my first book sold on Amazon.com woo hoo! I'm making some money
- Put those damn dresses up on eBay before Prom season is over
- Get some lunch with Dom Dom and her new man
- Pick apart Dom's new man
- Approve or disapprove of the new, hopefully, man and not boy
- Get these certain thoughts out of my head about a certain someone
- Read, read, read for Political Science-- the other students in there know their ish and there is a discussion (normally turned into a battle of knowledge) tomorrow
Can my life get anymore exciting? Yes, actually... when I add in the Angels game tonight! Now my life on the fun-o-meter hit about a 3?... Yeah sounds about right. Totally stoked on the game though. Last time I went it was with the same group of girls and oh man it was a good night.
Tailgating + game= much better choice then beach trip... not so beachy weather outside.
That list barely sums up what needs to get done these next couple weeks really. I am realizing that move in day is coming closer and closer. I don't have a bed yet. I have a duvet cover... but no furniture or decorations of any kind for mi dormitoro (spanish for room, right?). Not good.
Whew... changes are gonna be happening soon. I both welcome and refuse them. Mixed emotions definitely. I'll just go with the saying 'change is good.' Lets hope the ones to come are.
PS Can't wait to see you Shebster!! 1 day
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Where would I go if I could really go anywhere? At the moment I'd choose Assyria.... hundreds and hundreds of years ago, when the Hanging Gardens of Babylon were still 'hanging.' I was told to look up that topic tonight and what did I learn? That it would truly be amazing to see this member of the Seven Wonders of the World. Plus, these scientists in a video cannot figure out what system they used to carrying so much water up to water the gardens. They got me wondering as well; it would be nice to find the answer. This new topic of historical mysteries... hooked! I'm watching videos at 12:30 at night, now that has got to be interesting.
Interesting? I was asked what am I interested in... and am still stuck on how I could not answer that seemingly simple question. I threw out some random answers like 'educating myself.' Then strangely said I would like to know more about animals, history and politics (wth?). I even fell on the cliche "live life to it's fullest." Beautiful Britt... that does not cover my interests one bit. I thought I was answering to simply, so then began to think into specifics of what I was interested in and honestly... my mind went blank. Conclusion? I am still figuring out my interests. Unfortunately, I never took the time to identify what truly interests me. Well, that's what this age range is all about right?
Ok, so done with my emo writings for the night.
May 27th- Ms. Shelby Jean comes home from her journey to the Middle East
June 6th- Papa Moore comes to town!! my amazing grandpa from Arkansas (or Oklahoma? I can never get it straight)
June 8th- MoVe In DaY!! My apartment is officially mine and Kay's
June 12th- RCC is out of my life
June 13th- Evan (prayerfully) graduates from high school.
July 10th- School is in session.
Let's hope somewhere in between Evan's graduation and school starting, I get a job. I'll actually have bills to pay.
Who wants to bet I won't get up for school... again? Let's hope they wouldn't win.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
The main person that rattled my brain a little was a guy I thought to be completely mellow, super religious and, I guess you can say naive (please don't be offended by that). I was so far off base that I was practically speechless when he shared stories of his past and his current beliefs, or lack there of. Me, speechless= a very rare happening. I at least have something stupid or random to say. My mind could not really grasp it I guess.
Now I know I have been wrong in judging before ( it is a habit I am trying to break), I just have never been so distant from the truth before. Does that mean my people skills are getting worse? Hope not.
Oui... enough with the epiphanies. Tomorrow is registration day in San Dee-a-go. That means I am one step closer to school and one step closer to my new home =) Its definitely going to be a change and I have mixed feelings about leaving R-town, but... happy/excited outweighs all the others. Time has come for me to hit the next 'grown-up' stage. I think my mom is nervous (and shes already talking about when I come home), but I know its the best choice as far as our relationship and my maturity goes.
In other news:
-Still no men on the radar; although, Kayla is making it her mission to find me one.
-Kari, Kayla and I are getting a new toy.
-My Poli Sci professor said I will pass his class! Yay
-World Relgions tonight had a great guest speaker on Christianty
-I got a great work out today (finally)
-I found a new person I really enjoy talking to
-New topic of interest: Egyptian Heiroglyphics and Egyptian history as a whole. Challenging myself to do some self educating on this one.
If I continue to write it'll just be rambling. (As if I wasn't doing so already, right?)
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
That blog, along with a collection of previously told stories, makes me even more grateful for the love and support of my family. It also, leaves me in disbelief to how someone can be so blind. The man cannot open his eyes to see the successful and godly woman his daughter has become. Instead of support and love, you fills her head with the idea that his actions are what someone who truly cares for her does. Which leaves the girl searching for support elsewhere and eventually creating a family of her own. I am glad to be a part of that family dollface. I pray you dad will read this and realize he is missing out on a wonderful person since he won't allow you home. Sorry to put your business out there. The feelings needed to come out... and what better way to release them then a blog, right?
With more love and support than you can handle,
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Love you Shelbsters. Can't wait for your return. You are in my thoughts and prayers dollface